listen...

what does the voice of God sound like? when He calls, does he have a special ringtone for us to recognize Him by? we're surrounded by so much chaos that it's hard to hear his voice. and i personally think it would be a lot more convenient if God used his booming voice and wrote in lightning across the wall to speak to us...

but i truly think that God speaks softly sometimes just to see if we're willing to block out the noise and really listen for Him.



but what about when you DO hear the voice of God... and you don't like what He has to say?

this semester i tried ignoring the voicemail God left me, and prayed that it wasn't from him. deep down, i knew it was, and i even prayed that He would call back with a different direction that i wanted to hear! but that little alert light kept flashing, reminding me i had a message from God... i couldn't ignore the call! even bro. sisco said last week that "the call of God will follow you until you follow it." it's so true.

well, i called on God...

and He asked me why i was asking him to repeat himself...then He said,
"if you're not willing to do the small things I ask of you now, then why should I ask you to do even greater things in your future?"

needless to say, i was frustrated. God's direction for my life didn't make sense at the time. and i was happy with the way things were.

but i had to come to grips with the fact that God knows more about my happiness than i do. (shout out, jules!)

so here's a few things i learned this week with the help of my amazing mom, friends, teachers, mentors, and visiting ministers:

- sometimes God asks us to do something to see if we trust Him enough to do it.
- sometimes God takes things away from us like a parent does with their kids.
- sometimes what God takes away He gives back to us when we've matured.
- sometimes God takes away from us because He has something better in mind.

bottom line, God is God, and i am not.